This song gets to every time I hear it. I feel like I’ve been invisible my entire life to women. Anyone I would like, rarely liked me back. No one really took the time to get to know me. It didn’t help my self esteem because I was never good enough for my father to do anything right. I really felt unlovable and unworthy of real true love most of my life.
Never give up hope though because 55 weeks ago I met the person that made me happier than I’ve been my entire life. She’s beautiful, loving, caring, and genuinely the best person I could have ever asked for. She knows more about me more than any other person in my entire life. I can be just myself and it feels right. We honestly love each other unconditionally. My love knows who I am and my life has never been better.
How many people are upset in their lives because they are caught up with things or people they can’t change? Holding on to issues that I can’t change is one of my worst, if not worst, problems that is detrimental to my health. Mentally, I’m a mess and need to make changes. It is hard because I worry to much. I’m comfortable right now, even though I’m miserable, worried, and scared. If I do move on, will things improve or get worse? If they improve, I’m scared and if they don’t, I’m scared. If things do get worse then it may push me over the cliff mentally. Life is full of hard choices and keeping things the same because I’m miserable and comfortable is no excuse to not change. I’m praying I can make the hard choices that I’m holding on to sooner than later.