This July 4th there is a lot to celebrate being the 245th birthday of our nation. There is so much to be thankful for in America and I will not go into that in this post. I want to remember all my loved ones that are gone like I do on every holiday. I’ve been through a lot of loss and the only member of my immediate family left. I used to be sad and depressed on holidays and never looked forward to them. That has changed this year for me.
I am thankful for my new family and future I’ll be starting soon with the person I love. What better way to move forward is by remembering all the good things I loved most about the people who are gone. I’ll try to be happy carrying on all their good that I remember.
My closest brother Paul was my best friend and was the most kind and caring man I ever knew. I think I already have that characteristic and will continue. My brother Mark was a go getter and did whatever he had to do to live a life on his own and support his family. I know what I want in life now and will do my best to make it happen to start my new family. My parents did what they needed to do to support their children and stayed together through good and bad. Being disabled, I am limited to what I can do but I will fight and promise to love my wife and be faithful through any issues that may arise and support her any way I can. My grandparents were very loving and I definitely have that trait. I will definitely honor them by showing love and kindness.
“The Remembrance of the good done those we have loved is the only consolation when we have lost them.” (Demoustier). Of course they will remain in my heart forever and it’s easy to remember the happy times instead of the sad. When I’m gone, I hope I’ll be remembered for everything I have and will show to my family.
I felt like I didn’t have hope for a long time. Every day I was just existing and not really living. I hated my life and every morning I would wake up thinking what’s going to go wrong today. I don’t even remember the last time I was really happy, if at all.
That changed 54 weeks ago when I met a special person. To me, she is the most special, beautiful, smart, woman I ever met. I now know for the first time how it feels to be loved and cared about with it being unconditional both ways. My days are happy and look forward to a future together. I am inspired to be an better man and feel like I really have a purpose for the first time in my life.
Maybe I survived to this point in my life because God had a purpose for me. I know I have turned her life around as well and we both feel blessed. I didn’t have hope and was miserable. Maybe if I believed tomorrow would have been better, I would have enjoyed a better life.
Never, ever give up because then you’ll never have a chance for life to improve. If you are having a rough time right now please have faith that your life will improve. It may not be tomorrow, next week, or in a month but it will happen. Fifty five weeks ago I would have thought this advice is full of shit but I kept pushing forward. I now have hope and know tomorrow will be better. H.O.P.E. (hold on pain ends).