I need to remember this is quote every day. When I don’t, it causes most of my depression and anxiety. There is so much pain and misery in my past that it is very hard not to be occupied by these thoughts.
Then I just need to remember, I am still here and survived. There’s got to be a reason why. I think the reason (s) why are still coming to me but they are starting to become more in focus.
So that leaves me worrying about the future making my anxiety go out of control at times. No one knows even if we will actually be alive tomorrow. Why do we even think anything we worry about can even be changed?
Living in the past or future just takes our happiness away from now (today). I have proven I am strong, of course I’m still struggling at times, but I am still here. I am now! I am going to live my best life moving forward.
I really need to get back to writing on here. It’s been almost a year. I got thinking about love lately and wanted to express some of my views towards it to my wonderful woman in my life.
You can like a face or a body, but you don’t fall in love with it. You fall in love with the mind. The way a person thinks, the way a person talks. Beauty can attract people, but your thoughts are what’s going to make them stay.
I imagine God’s love is like an ocean or the sky. You can see the beginning but not the end. I never thought I could love anyone as much as I do you. I was never that religious of a person but always wanted to believe in God. My faith has really grown in the 2 plus years I’ve known you, not in any specific kind of religion but I truly believe now.
There is no other explanation how we could have met each other and how our love has blossomed more and more every day. We were both hurting, having no one that truly cared and loved us. We found each other right at the time we were in the most need for help. As for a specific religion I don’t think God minds as long as you love everyone equally and not do anything in hate in their name. I feel like I need to do something more in my life that refects God and the love that was brought to us. I don’t want to sound like a religious fanatic because man has changed religious texts for their own benefits and I don’t fully believe any.
The basic moral principles of Zoroastrianism is a good place to start with good thoughts, good words, and good deeds. I believe that God loves all and in turn wants everyone to show that love towards others. People have to start believing that material things do not matter. All that matters is the well being of people in our lives. I need to keep focusing on all the good that there still is and not on the past or current pains. I need to stay positive because if what I believe is true, that God did bring us together, that there’s no way our story is going to finish in a sad way.
So let’s both always stay positive because we will have a wonderful future together as we will continue to grow every day. I love you unconditionally with all my heart and will always be a good man in every way possible because that’s what you deserve. Thank you again for accepting me because I know I have many flaws. One thing I can promise is I’ll continue to love you everyday, support you, and care for you, never breaking your heart.